A Day in the Life


I'm tired of letting people down.
I'm tired of not being able to make a damn cup of tea.
I'm tired of burning my food.
And of not being able to multitask.
I'm so tired of of losing something on an hourly basis.

I'm tired of hurting 24/7 both emotionally and physically.
I'm tired of pills, appointments, and treatments.
I'm tired of always putting on a face.
And of wearing sunglasses at night.

I'm tired of losing friends.
I'm tired of not paying attention.
Or retaining any information.
I'm tired of being dependent.
I'm tired of having to lean on people.
And of holding them back.
And I'm so tired of getting and not being able to give back.

I'm tired of not being able to work out, play sports, or even do yoga.
I'm tired of not fitting in my clothes because of it.
I'm tired of watching my dog miss his walks and stare out the window.
I'm tired of being useless.
I'm tired of being tired.
I'm tired of being a shadow of my former self.
But most importantly, I'm so tired of missing out on life.